What I Was

By Kendall K

I was a girl who fell for the sky, I listened to the passers by.

I belonged in the moon no matter it’s phase , and I learned that no man but my father Would ever stay

I grew up with absent minded peers surrounding me

So I was expected to be a phantom, being of a star.

Dust and whispered nothings, vapor,

thin condensation that accrued in the kitchen

Instead I was thick, cloudy, volatile smoke that causes cells to divide rapidly

I grew up fast, far too fast

I sprouted and bloomed like a blue and yellow hydrangeas would on a

Midsummer’s Eve

I became deeply rooted in dealings of affection

I was a girl who wanted to become an adult before she turned 16

And I was a girl who wouldn’t stop until what she wanted

Sat before her

I was a girl who learned that being loud got you everywhere

So I announced my every basic need

But I guess I wasn’t loud enough because nothing could

Satisfy my longing, I was a bottomless pit of wants

I am now a young woman who understands the lyrics

Of the often alluded to Rolling Stones song

I am now a young woman who desires to go back

To age twelve and rewrite her story

I am now a young woman who is bound to tell

The story she deserves to rewrite