The Ghost Inside

By Christa S

I exclude myself; I do not speak up I try too hard but not enough 

a pain I feel in my chest putting other firs is what I do best 

I am stressed and feel alone how do I live at home 

I want to be whole but am in pieces now how much happiness can I allow 

I am in a spinning twister of doubt what is my life truly about 

I can get better I am not alone but the ghost inside is left to roam 

Lonely hurts but its numb to me, forgive me for this poetry 

It is as dark as a tower as bright as a flame it grows dimmer in the rain 

I am me and I will not apologize of fill you up on broken lies 

I am in a tough spot right now, but I know I can turn around 

I am better when I do not try to look down 

I look up at my mentors and those that I love  

The lesson is do not look down when your above 

just look out everyone is my equal and my offspring will be my sequel