Anonymous
They want me to be
something I’m not
something they see
something only they want.
I try and I try
It’s never enough
work harder they say
it’s still not enough.
Sobriety is key,
If only there weren’t a fee
summit can help
trains, planes
taking me away
Mom, please don’t make me go away
the tears fall
I try to stall
We are doing this because we care
we’re doing this as an attempt to repair
I tell them they broke us
that our relationship will never be the same
why can’t they see
that all I ever did
was act away the pain
Next place was bad
no more of that
her future must stay intact
She’ll understand and the next one will be great
We’ll set the date
yes it’s expensive
and extremely intensive
just make the best of it
there is no need to be hypersensitive
it will be good for you
she’s just misunderstood
I’ll hate it, and I’ll hate you too
No, don’t worry
this is the best way
it’s fine,
we’ll still communicate
we know you are afraid
that this is unknown
We know it is hard
that you will miss home
we never meant to make you feel so alone
we just want what’s best for you
well then why can’t they see
that what is best for me
isn’t what they foresee
seizures seizures
what are these?
more problems
Problems, problems, problems
“Will we ever be free”
they’re her fault
if only our advice did she heed
failed tests
not again
can’t she give it a rest
ForGod’s sake, please?
honesty, honesty
can’t they see
if only they heard me
I can barely breathe
I’m trying, I’m trying
must I always scream
codependency
“why can’t she ever just be”
no more school for me
program time,
“you have to agree
It will help, guaranteed”
“We love you,” they say
we want you to stay
so why do you keep sending me away
ascend.
this is the end
one more time
then you will be home again
no more boarding school
that would just be cruel
why do you make promises
you will not keep
why must I always leave
why can’t you just accept defeat
you say you love me
that I should always be me
that I should never change
and that I’ll learn more with age
But if you loved me
then you would see
that your acceptance
is all I really need
And now here
One LAST time
4 months is the goal
there are no loopholes
it’s only temporary
is this all really necessary
more money
sorry honey
more therapy
more time away, temporarily
will I ever be free
to just be me
or will I always be alone
unheard, crying on the phone
I want to go home
why can’t you see
just let me leave
pretty please?
I beg
I plead
I cry
I scream
It’s always just me
I try and explain
to let them in on the pain
but they don’t listen to my cries
no one does,
no matter how hard I try
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