Pawn

By Sammi K

I try 

I try so hard 

To stay within the cards 

To push through the days 

Though they have me in a haze 

With nothing but a distaste 

Though time moves on 

I am nothing but a pawn 

In someone else's game

I stay within the lines 

I follow the guide 

I am but a leaf on a vine 

I am a fraud

Though they are in awe 

Of the progress I have made 

Though I no longer wish to pay 

To stay in the game

I look to the finish line 

But there is no end in sight

The days end 

But I continue to blend 

Hiding the pain as I pretend 

I ask for help 

But they push me away 

Leaving me to fray 

And make my own way

They try to understand 

But they have a plan 

Which they do not wish to change 

So must stay 

Locked in my doorway

Peaking out of the glass 

Hoping that this, too, shall pass.